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Posted on 2006.03.19 at 04:12
How I am: cold
Music of my heart: Let Me Hear - Tomoko Tane
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What makes you differnet

Posted on 2005.05.15 at 01:24
How I am: content
Music of my heart: Scars - Papa Roach
Today was really, really fun lol ^_^

Thursday Jon and I went to the new chinese buffet called Happy Buffet in the ghetto edwardsville, Hide then met us their, but couldn't get Taki to wake the fuck up so he missed out as did Lindsay and Scott lol. Anyways damn is that place good!!! Then Jon, Hide and I went to play pool at Guy's 'n' Doll's, but this is funny right before that when we were out in the parking lot deciding if we could make it to the movies or not, this car pulls up, then a cop car pulls up, we look at each other then Hide and I both said, can we get out of here now? lol it was funny lol

Shooting pool was fun lol out of the 6 games I played I won 5 heheheheee.

Then Friday, Lindsay, Scott, Jon and I went to the Happy Buffet for lunch lol and bascially made assholes out of ourselves. It was much fun. Afterwareds we basically sat in Jon's HOT car (which by the way I burned my back on the leather seats aaaaaaaaawwwwwww) in Lindsays driveway and talked for an hour lol (and I found out Lindsays dog Kaze takes a 2 minute piss). We also made Jon late to pick up pizza for his family lol cause we were stalling lol. He was a sad Johnny. So I ended up going with him for the pizza (which I got burnt again!!!) we dropped that off at his house then he brought me home and he stayed like 3 hours playing Grandia II with me lol. (he's trying to avoid the bane of his existence, his cousin who looks exactly like Gollum from Lord of the Rings, it's quiet scarry, oh and the best part is apperntly he wants Jon to set him up on a date with me, and told Jon he'd give him a Car if he did, so now it's all a big joke, and Scott saying if Jon pay's him enough, he'll wear a wig and do it lol. And today it came down to if Jon gave him I think it was 200 Scott would wear the wig and go but Linds and I would be 'her' other partners lol. "my bitches" lol!!!!

Oh but this was the best we were sitting at Jon's dinning room table today and we were talking bout Jon's mom's awsome cheese pie's and Scott made the comment "I'm going for the virgin cheese pie" Right at the word virgin Jesse comes in and says "did someone say virgin" we died laughing. Of course we all made a shitload of jokes

But anyways, Jon graduated college so today was his party, Scott and Lindsay gave him a kindergarden graduation card, and my card said it was a miracle he graduated, and I pasted in a bunch of pics from somethingawful.com and it was pretty funny.
Scott hit Jon in the balls, I used a glass that a candle had been burned in and used it to make a dark circle on the top of Jon's head, to which Lindsay then made darker.
Then I used dandleiloins and painted his arms yellow, and then Linds helped lol. She then took a wet napkin to try to wipe it off him, and the black ink from the napkin just smeared on his arm lol. It was really funny.
Finally Hide, Taki, and Mike showed up. We went and watched Hellboy. Then we all left.

But oh during the movie right, I was laying on Jon's bed, Lindsay was right next to me and Scott was lying in her lap and really wasn't paying attention to the movie had my eyes closed, everyone but us and Jesse was downstairs eating, and I happen to look down when I felt something brush against my leg, I looked down, and there was Jesse's FEMALE dog bubba, yes bubba, biting a pillow, and hummping it. I start lauging and hitting Scott's arm cause it was the closest, at first they just could see her biting it, but then I got them to see the rest and we started laughing so hard, we woke up Jon's poor dad. Omg!!! It was so funny.

Poor Jon's pillow!!!!

So now, I'm all happy and stuff.

Oh yeah Sauron got sick last night cause he ate string, so he was throwing up, my mom not only stepped in it, but she slipped on it then fell on it lol. She didn't even know it too lol.
Oh and today cause of the bad thunderstorm we had, he had an accident on her bed. Poor puppy lol.

I'm such an asshole, but I LOVE this absolute feeling of belonging when I'm with them.

Oh and cause our lives suck a lot, Scott, Lindsay and I are the Unlucky Triad, too which I said I want a t-shirt lol and it was decided that Jon is, his own special unluckyness.

Hide, and Taki go back to Japan tomorrow, and Taki isn't comeing back. But Hide is going to take us to this Ramen museum over their and the Gundam museum. =^.^=
Japan right now is a whole mess in itself though, but hopefully monday we can get it all taken care of cause we were SO pissed off.

But I'm not letting that get to me, till monday cause I like feeling happy, like this.

Anyways, I think thats it for now lol.

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It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss

Posted on 2005.05.11 at 01:33
How I am: giggly
Music of my heart: Almost - Bowling For Soup
OMG!!!!!!! I got to see the episode of Invader Zim, with Tak the ugly new girl lol ^_^ which made me insanly happy and now I've been on a hyper happy mood the entire night!!!!!!

Listening to happy dance music too.

New obsession, Urahara from Bleach (whos VA is none other then my beloved Miki-kun, to which I'm on a kick and I think he's the hottest guy ever -.-; when his shrunken cheeks, and fucked up, skunk colored, electricuted blond hair, make him look terrifying. Yet he has taken over and replaced the hottness that is Orlando Bloom.) and Nanami from Sukisho he is just so freakin adorable and his boyfriend's VA is also Miki lol. He's just getting the roles lately lol. But thats ok cause I freaking love him.

So I'm listing to songs from TATU and am enjoying them!!!

I LOVE GIR AND GAZ!!!!! Invader Zim RULEZ!!!! (that was me trying to be cool by adding the z)

Yeah so I've been haveing nothing great to write lately but thats cause I haven't left this house now in over 2 months except to go to doctors appointments so the little life that I had, is now done to nothing lol!!!!

Sad thing is though I have come to realize though, is that as much as I want to, I don't think I'm gonna get to go to Japan for school now, (which just sucks cause no Otakon still and I've already spent 500 on it already, but my school loans just aren't comeing though -.-; ) also I don't think I'm gonna be able to go back to school at all now, cause of troubles here at home, which sucks doubeablly cause I so desperetnly want to be back in school, cause I don't want to be at a sucky deli job for the rest of my life. Due to a lot of real life issues, unless I can move away from here, I just can't attend a college, and I can't leave here cause of my mom.
But hopefully the realization I came to the other day is true (which I hope to god it is) that just cause I don't have a college degree or something doesn't mean I'll be stuck at a cappy job all my life right? I mean I still belive things happen for a reason, and even though I've never thought of what I wanted to do with the rest of my life, nor can I even see anything for me in the future, never could -.-;
But with that thought that things happen for a reason, maybe I'll just find what I'm suppose to do ya know? Atleast thats what I hope.
I definitly don't want to tell Scott and Lindsay anything yet though, cause alreay Jon won't go with us cause of mommy -.-;
I don't want to be left behind either.

Wow that was a sad rant but I need to say it to feel better now that i feel sad though but its all good cause i'll just listen to the music and feel all happy again lol ^_^

I want to have a party so bad right now lol with a shit load of dance music lol

I need the game burnout 3 it's so much fun!!!

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Greatest ever

Posted on 2005.05.08 at 22:33
How I am: busy
Music of my heart: Spiderman
Well, we now have dish network, and I am LOVEING toon disney and boomeragane chanels, cause I've got a LOT of the old cartoon back that I love. I haven't watched this much tv in forever.

Spiderman
X-Men
Gargoyls
Digimon (first season hells yeah)
Daria
Talespin
Little Mermaid
Hercules

and a shit more!!!

I'm such a loser lol ^_^

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Inside a dead sleep

Posted on 2005.05.07 at 01:22
How I am: thirsty
Music of my heart: Gessekai - Buck Tick
It's amazing, my room is actually CLEAN!!! I actually have a floor!!!!

Stupid post but I felt like this needed to be documented only for the simple fact that, I haven't seen my bedroom floor now going on about 2-3 years.

Stupid dog is neutered now.

Getting dish network tomorrow cheaper then blue ridge, is it too much to wish for animenetwork and toon disney?

Naruto is a fucking awsome anime, so addicted right now. I watched all current episdoes and the movie and have read the manga, and I just want someone to go and give Naruto, Gaara, Sasuke (even though he pisses me off), Chouji, Hinata, Neji hugs, cause damn, they need a freakin hug. But my love is for Naruto and Gaara!!!

Life has been pretty bland lately, not much to say.

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I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand

Posted on 2005.04.14 at 01:44
How I am: tired
Music of my heart: Let Me Go - 3 Doors Down
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm still alive lol ^_^

Lets see, I was kind of dead due to the fact that my second surgery didn't go to well, and I ended up with a fever and stuff -.-; lol oh well

I got so addicted to Hana Kimi, AWSOME AWSOME manga.

Well, we got a dog. His name is Sauron, hes a miniture Dauchsand, 6 months old, and really really cute. He was my older brother Matt's dog, but due to him haveing to move he couldn't keep him. I DESPISE this dog. It does nothing but bark. And my mom's saying well "she'll be dead before it is, so it will be mine" -.-; I really dont' like that.
First off, I'm afraid of dogs (no matter their size) Second if I was going to get a dog it would be a Husky.

So tired right now lol

So finally got to see all of Wolf's Rain, beautful series, sad as hell. The last 2 episodes I spent crying my eyes out. I emptied an entire tissue box.

So lately my life has been nothting but stupid stuff, but I have not left this house except to go to the doctors in the past month an a half. So my life right now is kind of boring. But I'm loveing it.

My neighbers Horses keep getting out. So what does my mom do, goes after them -.-; but only cause the other neighber calls over about them -.-;

I think I need to go to bed now -.-; I"m tired lol ^_^

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Oh how I love songs in languages that don't exist!

Posted on 2005.04.03 at 03:40
How I am: devious
Music of my heart: Brother - Full Metal Alchemist
I am such a reject, I was sucked into the world of Full Metal Alchemist tonight, AND Final Fantasy: Unlimited. DAMN IT!!!!! I wish I wasn't so easily corrupted -.-; lol ^_^

So now I'm on my hunt to reclaim my FMA episodes that I acidently deleted from my computer, and I dug through my stuff to find my FF:U disks. =^.^=

Yet again another sleepless night it appears lol oh well.

Actually I'm extremlly hyper tonight. Though it could just be cause of the massive thunder storm outside. The roads by my house are already closed down and stuff apperntly. Ricky is out of work cause of it for a while.


I think I might clean my room later :::blink blink::: HEY IT COULD HAPPEN!!!

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Bite my shinny metal ass

Posted on 2005.04.02 at 04:08
How I am: awake
Music of my heart: Futurama
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SchuxYohji: A bit angsty, of course, but then.. can
you say, sex? If you can't, you seriously need
some help, my friend, because SchuxYohji -
screams- of it. It might not be love, but --
hey! It's damn delicious!


Your Weiss Kreuz Yaoi Pairing Is...
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That just made my night lol =^.^= Me Obsessive? Nahh lol =^.^=

Yet another night of not being able to sleep but thats ok lol ^_^

OMG!!!!!!!!! I'm watching the episode of Futurama where they are in the military, and Leela pretends to be a guy, and Zapp is all over her. Its so funny lol. Escpecially that whole bit with Zapp and Kiff about Zapp's sexy disease lol Sexlexia lol OMG! LOL I heard that and the first thing I thought of was Esh, lol omg!!!!

So Nana got me Kill Bill Volume 2 yesterday, which was really REALLY cool!!!

Oh how I LOVE both Bender and Kiff lol.

Oreo's are good cookies!!!! =^.^=

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Can not love can not kiss can not have eachother, must be strong and we must let go

Posted on 2005.03.27 at 02:48
How I am: loved
Music of my heart: How Can I Not Love You - Joy Enriquez
I'm proud of myself lol I finally have something to use against my mom when she starts telling me about stuff that I don't want to hear about like, haveing babies, sex, operations, horrible situations. Even when I plead with her to stop she won't but now I have something she can't stand hearing lol heheheeee :::insert evil laugh:::: I'm not sure how it came up but we were sitting in the living room, oh wait I remember now, we were their watching Easy Money I think it was and well the one character said "top or bottom" I started laughing, and she askes me what they ment.

So I told her and she makes the greatest comment to me ever (oh how I LOVE my yaoi) "I don't think they have sex like that" I started laughing and then started to explain to her that yes they do and when I started to go into more detail, she started cringing and going she doesn't want to hear it. It was beautiful. I said to her then that hey thats how I feel when you talk to me bout all the stuff and scares me lol and told her next time she starts in on me bout something like that I now have something to talk to her about lol hehehehehehheheheheheee.

Yes I'm stupid!!!

OMG!!! Finding Neverland is such a GREAT movie. Jonny Depp as usual is amazing in it.

Finished watching Outlaw Star today. Not bad lol.

Ok so this asshole on line by the screen name PosterNutBag024 has been iming my friend Ricky and pretending to be my best friend, and just talking bout us. Well, it's not Lindsay, nor is it her boyfriend. So the dipshit was on last night and basically we all imed the bastard after said person went in on Ricky again. Turns out we all have no clue who it is, plus they know why too much about Ricky.

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Rainbows and Butterflies

Posted on 2005.03.25 at 04:06
How I am: awake
Music of my heart: Blue - Cowboy Bebop
I was going back over my entry's from my jouranl and DAMN do I put down the stupiest 'subjects' and stuff lol but who well, it's my journal and I pay money for it so I'm going to put what I want lol =^.^=

I'm so happy only for the simple fact that the stiches came out of my left foot and I can get it wet now lol which means I can get a full shower lol ^_^ I"m such a dumbass lol ^_^
It still hurts a bit but not too much lol

My second surgery is April 7th.

I'm getting pulled into the world that is Ronin Warriors again -.-; Oh and FAKE.

I d/led some funny stuff today, both were AMV's but one was Stayin Alive to Trigun, and the funnier one was done to Yu Yu Hakusho to the song Wanna Be by the spice girls. I laughed so hard.

So yeah, I've been doing nothing with myself and it feels good. I'll get to continue doing this for about another month lol. The only draw back no money -.-; But thats ok the down time is so worth it lol.

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It was only a kiss

Posted on 2005.03.21 at 00:27
How I am: jubilant
Music of my heart: Mr. Brightside - The Killers
yay!!!!!!!!!!!! I dont' know why, just in an extremlly good mood today ^_^

Watched the Roast of Jeff Foxworthy tonight and it sucked lol oh well.

Also this Dragon program I watched was cool the first 30minutes then I last all interest in it lol

Hopefully at 8:30am tomorrow they will take the stiches out of my left foot =^.^= Yay!!!!

OMG!!! I am so addicted to the band The Killers right now. If you don't know who they are, YOU SUCK!!!! Seriously go check them out, they rock lol ^_^ So cliche lol ^_^

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Evil Pristess

Posted on 2005.03.20 at 00:35
How I am: devious
Music of my heart: InuYasha
NNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I finally tune into an episode of Inuyasha, and it's about Kikyo -.-; THE WHORE!!!!!!!!! My hatred for her is almost uncompareable.

DEATH TO THE EVIL THAT IS KIKYO!!!!!!!

InuYashaxKagome FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!


Her and her freakin Naraku obsession -.-;

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How do I set a laser pointer to stun?

Posted on 2005.03.18 at 22:45
How I am: anxious
Music of my heart: With You - Linkin Park
My GOD I'm dying of bordom -.-; I have not been able to leave this house since March 8th. I really think I"m starting to go stir crazy, or whats that term Cabin Fever. (iky iky iky movie eewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww why did I have to think of that :::hits self repeatedly with giant hammer:::: )

Anyways, I finished all of Kare Kano, and my love for Tsubasa and Asaba just grew!!!

I am so going as Tsubasa for the next convention holy shit!!!

I'm so whinny at the moment -.-; lol ha =^.^=

My ps2 decided to break on me too -.-; GGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm gonna be mellow dramatic right now "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW MY LIFE IS OVER AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW"

Ok I'm done -.-;

Now, back to nothing -.-;

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This is the only place for me

Posted on 2005.03.17 at 15:56
How I am: pensive
Music of my heart: Eden - To Destination
I so just got myself addicted to Yami no Matsuei. LOL!!!! Goddamn I sucks. So I've been sitting in my room since last night watching this one part during the last episode over and over and over and over agian. I think my dvd is going to kill me soon. lol Now I've taken to listen to the opening song too. -.-; I dont' think I can get anymore pathetic sometimes lol But thats ok.

Lets see another day of doing nothing lol ha!

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Is it alright if I exist?

Posted on 2005.03.16 at 22:33
How I am: content
Music of my heart: If you still belive - Legend of Dragoon
I am so LOVEING Kare Kano. It is so funny. I absolutly adore Asaba Hideaki and Shibahime Tsubasa they are so crazinly eccentric that I just fell in love lol =^.^= lol =^.^=

Was going to clean my room but got sidetracked lol nothing new their lol. oh well

Lets see....Um....yay -.-; Boring life. Oh yeah I did watch Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban today and well I'm really starting to agree with all those fangirls that ship RemusxSirius -.-; Cause I could so definitly see that -.-; lol =^.^= Another hard day at being a Yaoi fangirl lol ^_^

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Its hard to just forget the past

Posted on 2005.03.15 at 21:06
How I am: nervous
Music of my heart: If You Could See What I See - Geoff Moore & The Distance
Wow, Ricky spent the entire day over and we did nothing but watch Saiyuki....DAMN!!!!! It's a LONG series and we still aren't finished with it. I need to finish watch Kare Kano. My Grandma bought me The Incrediables dvd today I hope it's good cause it sure looks funny.

I so can not wait for the Star Wars Episode 3 to come out. Got the new trailer for it and DAMN I'm addicted already. I heart Star Wars so freakin much.

This sucks so much, I want a REAL shower so bad right now -.-; but I can't cause I'll get my foot wet and cause of all the stiches I can't -.-; another freakin month of this -.-; I also have the sudden urge to start jumping up and down like crazy and screaming like a mad person. -.-;


I think I've been couped up in the house for a bit too long, I mean it's only been a week and I'm already going bonkers!!!!

Don't get me wrong I'm loveing the time off of work but AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW I haven't been this inmoble in FOREVER. Also this not being able to do things myself is really wearing on my nerves.

I am just SSSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOO Bitchy I guess.

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Posted on 2005.03.14 at 16:53
How I am: crazy
Music of my heart: TV
Ok well hopefully I finally have my Sims 2 game finally working right!!!!

OMG!!!! I'm such a dork, I so can not wait for the Roast of Jeff Foxworthy lol =^.^=

Linds and Scott lent me Kare Kano, and OMG I am loveing it. A bit slow in the beginning but it picks up nicely and Asato is the freakin GREATEST EVER!!!!

And I would just like to say that I was so RIGHT about Kingdom Hearts OH YEAH!!!!!!!!

Some weird person is iming my friend Ricky pretending to be Lindsay and stuff and it's really pissing me off >.<

I've learned today that the movie Armed and Dangerous is a GREAT movie. We own it on VHS I konw it isn't open and I need to go find it cause I need to watch it again.

I just have to say that I am thourly enjoying my days of doing nothing lol =^.^=

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You smiled at me

Posted on 2005.03.12 at 21:49
How I am: artistic
Music of my heart: Simple and Clean - Utada Hikaru
Yeah, so I've basically just spent the ENTIRE day playing Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories. I FREAKIN love Kingdom Hearts, and Sora is the COOLEST. I'm not to sure how I feel about the new chick Namine, Riku I wish would "get" better. Though I think I like Namine a lot better then Kairi. I mean don't get me wrong I love Kairi, but she just gets on my nerves. (and no not for Yaoi reasons)

Doing nothing is pretty fun. lol

I wish I could find my drawing stuff cause I feel like drawing -.-; lol blah lol ^_^

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Leave tonight or live and die this way

Posted on 2005.03.10 at 18:01
How I am: listless
Music of my heart: Fast Car - Tracy Capman
I'm SSSSOOOOO bored -.-; I'm trying to play more sims, but it just keeps crashing on me and it's makeing me incrediably sad.

Also I'm feeling kind of sick lol mom say's its casue of the pain medication and the whole surgery thing lol I don't know lol ^_^ I mean it didn't seem to bad but yeah whatever. -.-;

My first Gravitation DVD should be here today lol so I'm anxioulsly awaiting it lol. Damn UPS guy better get here, acording to the traccking system, it was at dupont at 6:30am thats only like about 45 minutes from my house -.-;

I think I'm gonna go and watch some more Record of Lodoss Wars: Chronicles of the Heroic Knight lol =^.^=

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For your only company

Posted on 2005.03.09 at 16:47
How I am: content
Music of my heart: Simon - Lifehouse
I'm EXTREMLY bored out of my mind, I'm stuck here in the house now for atleast 2 weeks, and then I get to do it all over again.

Why you ask? Well, On tuesday march 8th at 10pm I had my left foot operated on. -.-;

And in a little over 2 weeks I should be getting the right one done.

That's not the worst part though. The worst is my boss at work and a few other co-workers told me such nice stories, like when I was knocked out the doctors and all were going to shove cigares up my ass and various things like that. That was actually the nice thing they said.

Oh yeah, my doctors office offically sucks. The DAY before my surgery I find out they didn't send the shit they were suppose to send for the operation. So all of Monday was me running around trying to get this stuff taken care of, which was suppose to be taken care of last week. -.-;

Other then that it's pretty cool. I hope my disability stuff kicks in casue I need the money lol =^.^=

If I am successful in gettting my loans, I'm going to Japan for school, and I'm SOOOOO increadiably happy ^_^

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